The older we get, the more we realize people’s opinions do not matter. When we are young, we are trying to find our place in the world and our friend’s opinions are their weight in gold. As we start finding out who we are and what we want, we slowly start reducing our circle to those that motivate and are following in similar paths.
Things that used to embarrass us leave as we get older but some things tend to always stay. Even today, while it is easier for me not to care, I still get embarrassed in public. I feel like we go out into the world to escape from our real life and to almost blend in with the rest of society. When something happens and the public notices you, it takes away the anonymity you were trying so hard to find.
Why do people care what other people think? Maybe it stems from a bad experience, childhood, a disability, a body defect, a need to be better. Whatever it is, humility is all around us and laughs in our face daily. Writing has been a humility for me.
In college, I wrote what I thought was an awesome senior exit piece only to have the editor bash the entire thing in an email she only meant for all the editors but had included me in too. After she realized what she did, she apologized and said she would print the piece. I refused the offer and never wrote for that paper or showed my face in the office again. Looking back, I wish I would have sat down with her, asked her why she thought that way and what I could do to make it better. But hindsight is 20/20, my ego hurt, and I was embarrassed that not only her but every other editor in the entire program read her email very unprofessionally bashing my piece.
I have been writing since I can remember. When I was little, I had this watermelon printed notebook I would write songs, poems, and stories in. (I still have it by the way.) When I got into high school I continued to write. College was the newspaper and a degree in journalism. After I got out of college I realized, everyone hates journalists. Myself included. I wrote for a few magazines and freelanced. Then I joined the military, life happened and I wrote two books and two blogs that gets me to what you are reading now.
Because up until recently, I was terrified to tell anyone I had actually wrote and self-published two books. I was scared to have people read them and tell me my work sucks. Or I am a terrible writer. Even now, I don’t like to read back through my books only to find something I should change.
But there will always be a critic. There will always be someone who hates my writing and thinks a monkey could do better. That’s just the rules of the game. People that put themselves out in front of the world to critique have got to be some of the toughest people ever created.
So, I’m proudly going to advertise my books. I’m proud of what I accomplished and I’m happy to say they are non-fiction and that I think every single person can learn something from.
My first book is about following a dream to its fullest only to find out that maybe some of the decisions along the way were made in the moment and not long term. Guys lie and not all heartbreaks are from love; life breaks you down too. But we keep moving forward, and hope for a better decision tomorrow.
Book Summary – A Fine Line
Caroline has been searching for something her entire life. She has changed jobs, cities, and friends, but is still missing a piece to her puzzle.
The pseudo love of her life, Tim, has his own agenda. And as years go by of waiting, she realizes his plans are very different from hers.
This leads her to chase a dream, the military. And when the timing in her life seems like things could not get much worse, she raises her right hand.
Caroline leaves behind everything and meets Hudson, a handsome police officer from across the country. He is successful, charming, and charismatic amongst their group.
As most relationships, things start off amazing, but as time goes on, strange happenings, stories, and instances begin. Things do not add up, timelines are wrong, and acts of heroism seem to have been subjective.
Caroline begins searching out clues to piece the past together, people within their circle that do not seem to fit, and Hudson’s strange behavior. As pieces start to surface, Caroline begins to realize that maybe these missing parts were something she was never supposed to find.
My second book stemmed from years of dating and getting nowhere. While it can get frustrating, it’s also kind of funny. I write about my experiences, heartbreaks, and things I’ve learned along the way. If you want a touch of fresh air meets sarcastic asshole, this book is for you.
Book Summary – Dating – What Could Go Wrong?
For over 16 years, I’ve online dated, blind dated, serial dated, and every other dated you can think of. This book is an assembly of the best, worst, and funniest experiences I’ve had along the way.
Dating can get to a point of exhaustion. While I think everyone should find some comfort knowing dating isn’t perfect, pretty, or successful, we can all laugh at our experiences, effort, and the strange people we meet on our journey to happiness.
So there ya have it. Two books out. One in the works and plenty more ideas already on paper. I’m not looking back this time. The haters can hate. I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake. Just kidding. I am going to keep moving forward, be excited for the future and keep writing.